The Way is Hard

Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few. -Matt. 7:14

I must say, the way used to be harder than it is now. I'm learning, slowly, to give in to His way. I've always had plans, all kinds of plans to do all kinds of things and they never quite end up following the same logical path I had set out for them. The result is usually far better, but the path much harder. I used to get bothered more by changes in plans than I do now. Now, I'm learning. I'm learning to see Him in it. Recently, I've encountered another change in plans and at first I was bothered but today, just today, I finally saw it. I finally felt it. He has never taken me where I wasn't meant to be. The road may be harder, less desirable even, but the result far better, although maybe different than what I had dreamed.

I'm learning silence, peace, stillness in Him.

Our communication has changed. I don't read as much, or even at all anymore. I don't pray as often. Yet, I feel Him, I am aware of Him and I try to move in Him. I know Him. I have always known Him, both from study and from relationship, but now I feel Him more than know Him, which is the depth of the knowledge in experience. Peace is being restored.