The Everyday

For not one of us lives for himself and no one dies for himself; for if we live, we live for the Lord, or if we die, we die for the Lord; therefore whether we live or die, we are the Lords. -Romans 14:7-8

Back in my home town now, I'm finding it more and more difficult to live that life. I'm finding it a huge challenge to remain the Lord's. I'm finding it difficult to sit at His feet, to enjoy Him, to serve Him even.

Out in the world, when you are sent to serve, it comes easily. You know during those times that you are sent with purpose. You have a job to do, a responsilbity even, for the body of Christ. Back here, I just am. I just live. I just serve in the day to day. It doesn't seem nearly as... charged?

There doesn't seem to be any risk involved, and it doesn't really come at a cost. For me, the risk and cost are what keep me focused. Here, I struggle to focus.

I'm realizing now that this is likely a large part of the reason I'm here. I need to learn to be disciplined in the day to day. I need to be like a "weaned child" against His chest, where I seek nothing, yet just enjoy Him. This is the challenge.