I Belong

Jesus answered the one who was telling him and said, "Who is my mother and who are my brothers?" And stretching out His hand toward His disciples, He said, "Behold My mother and My brothers! For whoever does the will of My Father who is in heaven, he is my brother and sister and mother." -Matt 12:48-50

Innately we all have a desire to belong. Some of us, most of us, find that in family. Those who don't, are left to search. Without a solid foundation, there are certain barriers you will struggle to cross.

All of my life I have been searching for something that I cannot find. I have looked in every hole, under every rock, in every community and family, yet still I come up empty handed and empty hearted. I have searched all my life for a place of love, acceptance and belonging.

I was made differently. I was made unique, without the companionship or support that most have. I've spent my life searching in all the wrong places for all the right things.

I want so badly to be loved. I want so badly to be irreplaceable in someone's life as is a sister or a daughter. I have never known this feeling, this sort of love. I don't mean in a romantic sense, because in many ways, I find that fleeting, but in the genuine love of a brother, a sister, a father, a mother.

The truth is that I will never be that to someone, but to God, I am. The best people are the ones who know their place at the table. Despite what I've always felt, I am at the table. I am created for a divine and beautiful purpose. The truth is that God made me exactly as I am. He could not love me more than He does at this exact moment and He will never love me any less. I am not perfect, but I am in the process of being made perfect.

To God, I'm so priceless that He bought me with the blood of His son. With Him I truly belong. He loves me even more than His own son. I have found what I've been searching for, I belong.